Surf The Waves...

Life is so funny. It just brings this overwhelming feeling sometimes--and you don't know how to handle it.

When I moved to California, I was so excited to surf whenever I wanted. However, I had only surfed Hanalei Bay in Hawaii prior (reference above pic).

 I fell in love with surfing. It became a passion of mine--a passion that I still struggle to be good at (because I'm not that good). It is so irritating sometimes--I just want to get good.

Cali brought on new waves. New ass-pounding waves (in many areas of my life). They are so unpredictable here. I can't believe the surf reports I read on surfline.com. Trying to predict waves is like trying to predict the weather--it's a bunch of crap.

The struggle is real. Cali is so different. I still don't care. I still strap my board to the car, and go. I will eventually figure this out.

 It is so humbling to be out there--and some of these waves are BIG. They kick my butt. They toss me, and hurt me, and challenge me. But I keep going out. And I won't stop. When I catch them--it's like the biggest high ever. EVER.

I had my twins out here a couple of weeks ago. I paddled out with one of them through the impact zone, and she kinda freaked out. She ended up going back to shore. My other kiddo paddled out with me, battled the impact zone, and had a great sense of humor on the other side of it. She was like, "OMG--MOM!!! Those waves were HUGE!!! I was laughing so hard about getting pounded that I thought I was going to choke on the saltwater!!!" 

We were on the other side of the impact zone and sitting on our boards (and we were FAR away from the beach), she said, "Mom, do you think there are sharks out here?" I said, "Of course there are sharks out here!!! This is where they live!!!! This is their home! and we're trying to surf in it!!!" She said, "MOM!!! Lie to me!!!" At that point, we both cracked up, and just enjoyed the moment. Then I tried to paddle into a couple big waves and she was yelling at me. She said, "MOM! What the hell!?! Do you think you're Laird Hamilton (pro big wave surfer)?!? 

I don't think I'm Laird. However, if you are going to fight your way out to the waves, you might as well try to charge them. It's a lot like life--if your're going to fight your way through, you might as well see what's at the end of it--even if you get tossed. At least you paddled in.

Let Go...

There is such power in release. 

Let go.

If it is too big for you--LET IT GO.

Feel the freedom in ultimate submission.

It is the most overwhelming feeling of peace you will ever obtain.

I Think I Need To Do This...

Can we make it Hawaii, tacos, and champagne instead? And for the love of God, can we take the apostrophe out of that word "tacos"? It doesn't make them plural.

This Song Touches My Core. RISE by Katy Perry

There really are no words for how this song touches me. I feel it in the depths of my soul. The timing for this song could not be more perfect for my life.

Favorite part of the lyrics (besides EVERY ONE OF THEM):

When, when the fire's at my feet again

And the vultures all start circling

They're whispering, "You're out of time."

But still, I rise

This is no mistake, no accident

When you think the final nail is in; think again

Don't be surprised, I will still rise.

I hope every person has that part inside of them that, no matter how completely obliterated your world feels, there is that strength to not only rise up, but in such a way that you are exponentially stronger than you were before you were deconstructed.

I must stay conscious
Through the madness and chaos
So I call on my angels
They say...

Oh, ye of so little faith
Don't doubt it, don't doubt it
Victory is in your veins
You know it, you know it
And you will not negotiate
Just fight it, just fight it
And be transformed...

#katyperry   #rise

Because Life Is Short...

It's been a rough patch, but I have finally rallied. I'm tired of being sad, having regrets, and overthinking my life.

 I read some of my older blogs (and by older, I mean--"Old As Moses' Toes Older"...like 5 years ago old), and I realize the magnitude of the stupid cycle I've been stuck in for years (because nothing can change unless you change it). I even deleted some of them because they aren't worth anyone on the planet wasting their time reading. 

This week (and in recent weeks), and after numerous conversations with amazing friends, I realized how much time I've flushed down the toilet with my life, and I GOT BACK OUT THERE. Where is there? LA. CALI. CA. I'm in the city of nightlife, fun, and the highlife. So yes, I took the leap. And it was worth it.

Tonight (and in the recent weeks), I realized how much fun it is to date again. And flirt again. Tonight was (a new) date night. It was fun, refreshing, and it felt amazing to feel AmAzInG again.

Don't waste your time. Life is still willing to happen for you--if you let it.

:) CHEERS :)

(post-date night photo from tonight--it was a good hair day--praise Jesus!)

Thought For The Day 07.15.16

I had a discussion with a good friend last night. She said her grandmother told her, "Women leave a relationship because they get hurt, upset, or angry. Men leave a relationship because they already had somewhere else to go."

Grandma was a smart woman.