Sunday, April 5, 2015

Happy Easter! 2015

Another year has gone by...and I'm still not in church on Easter Sunday. I know that some of you are probably like "How can you claim to be a Christian and not attend church on Easter Sunday???"
 I can't help it. I will attend church most other Sundays of the year (I'm a nurse--sometimes I have to work on those days) , but I can't do Easter. I think it's because I have anger management issues. I am super grateful for what Jesus Christ did for all of us, but I get really pissed off at all the people who killed him. It's a character flaw. That being said, I do not disregard the major sacrifice that Christ made for you, and for me.

Most of the time I do not like being labeled as a "Christian" because I hate to classify my love and belief in Christ through what man has created a "religion". However, Jesus is my favorite guy ever. Fanatic followers of Christ call themselves "Christians". Unfortunately, we have lost some of the fundamental meaning of what it means to be a follower of Christ. I'll explain.
Did you ever read some, or all of the old testament in the bible? God scares the crap out of me. The only way for me to wrap my head around God is through Jesus. Know why? Because Jesus loved everybody. He was the manifestation of God that made us all feel accepted, and forgiven. He hung out with all the peeps who were losers, rejects, hookers, traitors, previous murderers...pretty much the bomb. I think the most brilliant thing God ever did was make Jesus human so we could relate to Him, and so we could avoid feeling totally disgusted with ourselves and our shortcomings.
This week has been a tough week for me. I know I'm coming off a big surf vacation, and some of you are probably like, "Cry me a river--your life is so hard!" However, this vacation started the "clock". The "clock" on not knowing where to go from here.
My contract is up in Alaska in July of 2015. I know in my heart that my next move has to be based out of Colorado, but I have no idea about my job, housing, state to work in...I'm very confused. I have thrown myself into prayer this week, and asked for serious guidance. However, do you know how crappy it feels to throw up a bunch of selfish requests to God when this is the week we should just be thanking Him for sending his Son here?
This caused some conflict for me. However, I chose to focus on the fact that God sent his Son because HE LOVES ME. He cares about my needs, and through His word, I know that "all things are possible" with God. Guilt was removed, and I shot a ton of prayers up to that Guy this week. I also believe He received them.
Perhaps it is me getting older, but the more I think about my relationship with God, the more I desire His perspective on things, and not mine. I want to see beyond this. Beyond my now. Beyond tomorrow. Beyond this life. I desire God to reveal His plans for my life. I want him to help me better serve people. I want His light to shine through me and stir curiosity in people. I want to do His will.
I wanted to post this video. My pastor, Ben Todd, played this during one of his sermons, and it really hit me hard. When we get overwhelmed with things in this life, I think this is a good reminder of how to direct our focus.
I want to gain more of an eternal perspective on life. I am here for a reason. I have a divine purpose. I am a daughter of the One True King--and He loves me. I am a lucky girl!!!
I also want to leave a video of one of my favorite praise songs. I remember after one horrible night at work, after I had a terrible fetal demise, and a heartbroken family--I got off work at 7:00 am, showered, got ready for church, and this song was performed by our worship team. I was so down, and so upset, and so not understanding how horrible things can happen in this life. This life was never promised to be perfect. Our faith is strengthened by our struggles. This song lifted me up, and has been dear to my heart ever since that day.
Happy Easter. We are ALL so blessed by this day.

Saturday, December 20, 2014

Happy Holidays 2014!!! it really that time of year again?
First of all, let me say that I'm a horrible blogger. I used to think I was pretty good at blogging--until I moved to Alaska. If people paid me to blog, I'd be fired. Luckily, there are only a handful of people who give a rat's fuzzy behind about this thing, and therefore, this blog still has a heartbeat! I have avoided blogging Asystole! I am verging on Pulseless Electrical Activity from a run of sustained Sinus Bradycardia, but dag nabbit!--I'm still alive! (How do you spell "dag nabbit" anyway? Spell check wants to replace it with "Rabbit"--screw you, Spell Check...PS Happy Holidays)
I literally dropped off the blogging map when I moved to Alaska. I got swallowed up into an arctic abyss of camouflage-laden lumberjacks, and women who think flannel pajama pants and rubber boots are a fashion statement because they have flowers printed on them. HAYeeellllllllp!!!!
Actually, now I'm warped because there are some cute rubber boots with flowers printed on them up here. Oh dear--I've become one of THEM! Not really, but there are some things I don't hate as much as I used to about Alaska. I still fully intend to make fun of everything Alaskan though. It's my right now. I'm a LOCAL! **SHIVER**
I wasn't trying to be a blogging butthead by ignoring you guys. It just happened. Before I knew it, time was flying by--which is weird, because when I moved to Alaska, it quickly turned into the longest two year commitment of my life. I think on some level, the first year here put me in a place where I couldn't really blog about my life. I just didn't want to go there, and drag you there with me. And now it's almost 2015--and I have a new outlook, and am very excited for all of the possibilities that lie before me.
Work has been going pretty well. We are always busy. I moved up here because I was constantly being put on call in Colorado, and I have literally been put on call ONE TIME in a year and a half (on a scheduled shift) at this job. I can't buy a call day when I'm scheduled to work. It's a blessing though. I love having a job I can count on. I also love my job.
Through my work, I have an awesome coworker who is a staunch yogi, and is constantly wrangling me (and others) and encouraging me to push myself in the world of yoga. Before practicing simple yoga poses with this girl at work, and attending rogue yoga classes in CO, I hadn't done a headstand since 1989. She has turned my world upside down, and I literally am loving "playing" with yoga through my Instagram yoga account, "ARCTICBARBIEGIRL".  It gives me a chance to connect with other yogis, and people, and challenges me to break myself in half more gracefully by seeing the examples of other IG yogis.
I yoga at work--even when the security people think I look ridiculous as they watch their cameras.
I use yoga pics as ways to show how amazingly beautiful Alaska is.
I've learned to hug trees with my toes.
I've done yoga headstands on mountaintops--where people think I'm loco (check out the peeps in the background).
I've done yoga with my kids' dog in Colorado--even the dog looked worried that I was stuck like that.
I've tested the durability of street signs.
Tested the durability of trees.

The durability of bikinis.
Used yoga to play with knives.
Attempted to surf upside down.
Fully supported the revival of leg warmers.
Challenged that gravity wouldn't snap my neck.
And had a ton of goofy fun at work that led to LOTS of laughs.
I even show off my stylish footwear with my yoga poses now. What can I say? I'm a girl who love fashion. Why not use Yoga to express that. *cha cha cha*
My kiddos came up for the summer here in Alaska. Last year was so tough. I think at one point I went two months without seeing them, and it almost killed me. I started picking up extra shifts after the twins left this summer, and now head down to Colorado every 3-4 weeks--although, they have been coming up here every three to four weeks lately with the Thanksgiving and Christmas holiday! LOVING IT!
The plan for next year???
And I kind of like it this way. I am moving back home to Colorado. I will be based out of there, but I might stay on at my job in Alaska as a "registry" nurse (flying up and working chunks of time). I do love the people I work with, and I've gotten into the groove with this hospital. We do some AMAZING things to help women with pregnancy, and through their deliveries--things I've never even heard of or that have been attempted in the lower 48 states to help save the lives of babes, and I'm all about it.
The guy situation
It's good. That's all I'm going to say about that.
There were a couple of situations that rocked my world over the past year. The first of which was my ex-husband's best friend dying from skin cancer. I'm not trying to make a Debbie Downer Christmas card, but it totally sucked. And it sucked for the beautiful kid that he left behind who called him "Dad". Please remember to take care of yourselves in the sun. Why do you think I look like such a pasty weirdo in all my pics???? Even when I get back from Hawaii, people can hardly tell I went somewhere tropical, let alone SURFED the entire dang time!!!! I don't care how "tan" my skin looks. It is not worth the cell damage that occurs with a tan. I plaster on the 50 SPF, and surf my brains out. I don't care that I'm the whitest white girl at the beach. You have to take care of your skin. It's the largest organ in your body, and without it, you are super screwed. Huge shout out to my peeps in Colorado, because we have the highest skin cancer rate in the nation. We are a bunch of white people running around at high altitude. Tans look great, but don't choose a tan over your life. Protect yourself. Be pale white Norwegian pasty like me. ;)
The most recent loss was that of my Godmother. What a blessed soul. All I can think is that God truly needed another angel, because she fits the bill. I want to write an entire blog about her, and I will, because of how amazing she was, and how much she touched my life.  REALLY?? 65 years old, and God scooped you up? You must be doing something right, Auntie Pam. The rest of us have a lot of work to do before we receive that honor. I miss you terribly, and love you more than you ever knew.
This year has been monumental. My father contacted me--out of the blue, and asked to meet up for lunch during one of my trips to Colorado. I have not had a relationship with either of my parents for many years. It never meant I quit loving them, but it just was what it was. Sometimes life pounds on your relationships to the point where you think they are futile, and then God steps in and reveals that life is a wimp, and He has control over the revival of precious things. My dad has periodically kept communication open with me, but my mom is now starting to feel more comfortable with trying to get to know me again. For nearly half my life this has been a struggle, however, God is good. We are a family of faith, and sometimes faith has to be tested before your heart can commit to love. I can appreciate that, but also appreciate the opportunity it presents.
I am so excited for Christmas this year. This is the first year that I have sent Christmas presents to everyone in my family. They are so personalized, and so ME showing love to THEM--I can't wait until Christmas Day--even though I wont' be there to see them open their gifts...they will know they are loved. Isn't that what Christmas is all about? Granted, I spent almost $300 on all those gifts to ship them (and some of them came to me after I ordered them with free shipping...and then I had to re-ship them...DOH!!!), but I got to wrap all of them, and send my love with all of them. That's all that REALLY matters.
I want to wish everyone happy holidays this year. I know everyone celebrates them in their own way, but I want to say I AM SO THANKFUL FOR THE GIFT OF JESUS CHRIST. It is undeniable. As critical as some are of "Christians", Jesus was the bomb. He was the one who hung out with all the people no one wanted to be around--out of LOVE. He was such an example, and that is what I push for through my Christianity--just realizing that purpose of Christ.
It's funny how the simplest of things can bring out thinking back to the most important things. And God bless Charles Schulz for having the balls to make a cartoon that became as mega-famous as it has and declares true meaning of Christmas. "Balls" meaning Christmas ornaments--of course.
May you have a super blessed holiday season. I am so blessed to have the amazing friends that I do, and look forward to a blessed New Year for all of us. God is good. Trust in that.

Wednesday, November 5, 2014

Sadie and Mark--Adam and Eve Contemporary Dance those of you who know me KNOW that I love my Duck Dynasty.
Some of you may or may not know of Sadie Robertson. She is the daughter of the CEO of Duck Commander, and she is one of the stars of Duck Dynasty. She is awesome. She is gorgeous, funny, and is now on this season of Dancing With The Stars.
Those of you who know me also know that I am not shy about my faith. I am a follower of God, and my love for Jesus Christ is stronger than anything that I have love for in this world. That being said, I was so proud of Sadie for choosing a biblical theme for her dance this week on DWTS. Not only did this dance, and interpretation of "The Garden of Eden" give me goosebumps, but this girl has made a vow to keep her dancing classy, and tasteful during this show--something a lot of 17 year olds would not do these days.
This was brilliant. It made me look at this story like I have never before. It also made me reflect on the fall of man, and the intensity/impact thereof.
Love. Love. Love.

Wednesday, June 4, 2014

ISLAND HIBISCUS: Original Painting by Artist Whitney Madison

A few weeks ago, I finished a hibiscus painting that was navy blue and white, and really wanted to focus on the structure and beauty of the hibiscus flower. This week, still riding the hibiscus vibe, I decided to go a little wild with some fun primary colors to CeLeBrAtE the gorgeous colors the hibiscus bring.

This painting is on an 18"X24"X2" stretched canvas, and it includes my signature handcrafted frame in vivid green, has clear glass beads embedded that have splashes of bright greens and yellows in the bead centers, bright acrylics, my signature texturization that stands off the canvas, and it sealed in a high gloss glaze for protection. Perfect to add color to any room!

This painting is ready to mount directly onto nails. No metal picture hangers are necessary.

Perfect for an island home, or if your home reflects your dreams of the islands!
To view this, and my other paintings, please visit my online art gallery at
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(: Cheers! :)

Wednesday, May 21, 2014

**NEW PAINTING**: SUN and SURF Original painting by artist, Whitney Madison

This painting was inspired by two of my favorite things--Sun, and Surf! I adore the ocean, and the dynamic movement of the waves. I also love how the sun interacts with the water throughout the day. There is nothing like feeling the sun on my face while you rest on my surfboard...

This piece is on a 18"X24"X0.5" stretched canvas. It is done in an acrylic medium, in both matte and metallic paints. Orange glass beads bring fun texture to my signature handcrafted frame that reflects the vivid color of the sunset. The painting is fully texturized in my signature style that literally makes it pop off the canvas. The wave has mirrored blue glass embellishments that make it pop with vibrant color.The whole painting is glazed in high gloss, and perfect for any room.

This painting may be mounted directly onto nails. There is no need to add metal picture hangers.
This will definitely bring color, and a fun to your home! The painting is also very fun to touch.
I hope you all enjoy the sun and the surf as much as I do! However, don't forget to wear your 45 SPF! ;)
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Friday, May 16, 2014

**NEW PAINTING**: FLEUR DES ILES "Flower of the Islands", Original Painting by Artist, Whitney Madison

I am intrigued by the beauty of the hibiscus flower, and always enjoy taking time out on my trip to the islands to look at them, touch them, enjoy their beauty, and photograph them. This painting was inspired by just that.


Fleur Des Iles is an acrylic painting, on a 24"X12"X0.5" stretched canvas. It includes my signature, handcrafted frame in white pearl, and has pink/mauve glass beads embedded. The painting has three hibiscus flowers that have my signature, texturized style.
Each flower is partitioned off with a pearl white frame, and the flowers literally stand off the canvas. The acrylic paint is sealed in a high gloss glaze.


Perfect for any room! There is no need to add metal picture hangers--the frame mounts directly onto nails.
To view this painting, or to place a custom order, please visit my online art gallery at
(: CHEERS! :)

Tuesday, May 6, 2014

**NEW PAINTING**: HIBISCUS Original Artwork By Artist, Whitney Madison

This painting was inspired by my love for the hibiscus flowers that pepper the islands of Hawaii with amazing color, and beauty. I love the shape, and unique characteristics of the hibiscus flower, and always seem to end up taking multiple photographs of them while I am on the islands.
This painting has my signature handcrafted frame, on a 18"X24"X2" stretched canvas, with clear glass beads embedded. It has acrylic pearl white paint, and is sealed in a high gloss glaze. The background is in a midnight navy blue acrylic, and the hibiscus flowers are white acrylic, with pearl white, and midnight blue highlights. The anther and stigma coming from the center style (biological names for the center of the flower) are embellished with clear Swarovski crystals, as are both letter "i" on the writing, "Hibiscus". The entire painting is sealed in a high gloss glaze, and perfect to hang in any room.
The wood frame mounts directly onto nails. There is no need to add picture hangers! This painting pops off the canvas in my signature texturized style, and is fun to touch!


I am usually so enamored with the beauty and color of the hibiscus, but wanted this painting to focus on the beauty of the actual structure of the hibiscus flower.

(: CHEERS! :)
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